My long national nightmare is over, aside from a few mop-up operations in the South Pacific.
Okay, no, I didn't declare statehood, but over the last decade I've drawn myself through more emotions that at least a few city-states. Apparently it turns out that I've got a thing for artists, teachers, and healthcare professionals. No, I'm not referring to any nurse fetish, but thanks for the thought. My high school crush is working to help the disabled, and she's married with a kid. I'm mostly just glad she's safe—I worried about that sometimes. Now the film that has flipped through my mind so many times has an ending, which is good.
The knowledge helps me more clearly see the strands that connect the personalities of the different girls I've liked over the years. I was amazed when she said she was working with the disabled. There are remarkable parallels between her life and that of the other big crush I had, which I never expected. Then again, there might not be a whole lot of meaning to it.
I could wish that something had gone differently years ago, but I was so certain of fate back then that if anything actually did happen, I'd probably be a full-fledged believer in witches and wizards by now. Hey, at least I would have fit in with the Harry Potter/Lord of the Rings crowds ;-) No, those thoughts have to do their ride off into the sunset.
Anyway, my mind is a syrupy mix of different thoughts today, and various things will be bubbling to the surface for a while. I'm going to be sleeping a lot, but I'll try to at least get out to a movie tonight, despite my budget.
Posted by mike at March 12, 2005 03:49 PM | Self | TrackBack