Stupid window is leaking again. Thought they fixed that..
A lot of melting snow today..
Before I forget ('cuz I know I will), I have to put down some infatuation-related thoughts.
I wrote a note to one of my friends, mentioning that I really like Sarah. I was hoping he'd have some great words of wisdom, but it didn't really happen. At least he wasn't mean about it or anything. The thing that I wanted to remember was that right now, all she sees is Josh. I'm nowhere near smooth enough to know how to change that, so I don't think that would be a good thing to waste time on.
I figure all I can do is be myself. I should keep trying to figure out how to get to know girls, rather than just waiting for them to walk into my life. I want to ask my friend to try to help me out. If he hears of things looking up for me with Sarah, I hope he'll let me know. I just hope I can accept that it might never happen.
I hope I can start talking about computer stuff in this diary again.. Less stressful..
Later
Reminded yet again that I have very different perception of events when they are happening versus before/after. When Sarah visits, I'm in a different state than when she's away, and I think of her differently.
Sorry for writing this here.. I really need to find a better place to write down this stuff.
I've been meaning to have a diary program of some sort on my computer for ages, but I never got around to writing one (back in my DOS days), and I'm sure that there are umpteen packages for Linux these days. Web interface would be easiest, I suppose. Probably wouldn't be too hard to make one, just have to do it.
Posted by mike at December 2, 2001 12:54 PM | Abode , Erik , Josh , Old Advogato Diary , Sarah , Weather | TrackBack