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03-30-03      chew on this

Read Matthew 5-7

03-29-03      more stately mansions

Read The Chambered Nautilus

Florida has sand that looks like snow. Minnesota puts sand on top of the snow, but it's not fooling anyone. Florida has grits for breakfast. Uds has gritty breakfasts. Fire in Florida means sitting in a warm circle late at night. Fire in Minnesota means a drunk person burned his popcorn and we all have to shiver outside for twenty minutes. There is no assembly language in Florida. Florida has armadillos.

Minnesota's nifty too, though. I daily get the opportunity to spit in the Mississippi. I have huge beautiful buildings and near anonymity. I know people here. Cold weather builds character. Our squirrels are fat. Our professors are quirky beyond all reason. My four professors combine for one fanny-pack, one Indiana Jones hat, a striking resemblance to Alan Alda, a very blank stare, a humorous smirk, a tendency to pace backwards across the room, and an alarmingly large supply of vests.

Ecc 12:8 "Meaningless! Meaningless!" says the Teacher. "Everything is meaningless!" Ecc 12:9 Not only was the Teacher wise, but also he imparted knowledge to the people. He pondered and searched out and set in order many proverbs. Ecc 12:10 The Teacher searched to find just the right words, and what he wrote was upright and true. Ecc 12:11 The words of the wise are like goads, their collected sayings like firmly embedded nails--given by one Shepherd. Ecc 12:12 Be warned, my son, of anything in addition to them. Of making many books there is no end, and much study wearies the body. Ecc 12:13 Now all has been heard; here is the conclusion of the matter: Fear God and keep his commandments, for this is the whole duty of man.

It seems there is no original thought-- only clever articulation of ancient truths.

This is my page for English B.

03-27-03      'twas brillig

Today I talked to Larry on the 16 between Willey Hall and Snelling Ave. Larry has lived in the twin cities for about twenty years, and drives a truck out east once a week, which he enjoys. He knows the beauties of Georgia peaches and mountain interstates. He also is a believer. I did the daily crossword at Arby's before spending the remainder of my excursion at a camera shop (very cool, but nothing purchased), and Barnes & Noble (very cool, bought a Milton book). The cold drizzle turned into snow, big sloppy clumps of stuck together snowflakes. It's a gray day. Didn't get any of my errands done.

Let Thy goodness, like a fetter,
Bind my wandering heart to Thee.

03-26-03      live

I constantly find myself stumbling around in brazen refusal of all that is good and freely given.

Eze 33:10 "Son of man, say to the house of Israel, 'This is what you are saying: "Our offenses and sins weigh us down, and we are wasting away because of them. How then can we live?" ' Eze 33:11 Say to them, 'As surely as I live, declares the Sovereign LORD, I take no pleasure in the death of the wicked, but rather that they turn from their ways and live. Turn! Turn from your evil ways! Why will you die, O house of Israel?'

Now the bright morning Star, Dayes harbinger,
Comes dancing from the East, and leads with her
The Flowry May, who from her green lap throws
The yellow Cowslip, and the pale Primrose.
Hail bounteous May that dost inspire
Mirth and youth, and warm desire,
Woods and Groves, are of thy dressing,
Hill and Dale, doth boast thy blessing.
Thus we salute thee with our early Song,
And welcom thee, and wish thee long.
   -Milton, "Song on a May Morning"

I realize that it is neither morning nor May as I include this, but yes, it still excites me. Mirth and youth, and warm desire. That's poetry.

03-24-03      dust on the scales

Well, I'm back from spring break. It was refreshing, but a week spent in Florida has made me really wish I wasn't in school. More than I normally wish that. A taste of honey's worse than none at all, so they say.

The campus is swarming with protestors today. Skip class and play frisbee for world peace. In some countries they have to do other things for peace, like kill and die. We are special, we can choose our own price for world peace, and it was a pretty conniving pacifist indeed that came up with the skipping class thing. What a strong statement of purpose. Behold the American university, where anyone can become a militant individualist or a world-class radical simply by jumping on the wagon. Part of me wants to advertise a PRO-WAR STUDENT WALK-IN. Students could mob campus buildings and attend classes at random all day long. Ah, but I am facetious.

Politics is a pendulum whose swings between anarchy and tyranny are fueled by perpetually rejuvenated illusions.
--Albert Einstein

Think of all the hate there is in Red China
Then take a look around to Selma, Alabama
You may leave here for 4 days in space
But when you return, it’s the same old place
The poundin’ of the drum, the pride and disgrace
You can bury your dead, but don’t leave a trace
Hate your next-door neighbor, but don’t forget to say grace
--Barry McGuire, Eve of Destruction

Isa 40:15 Surely the nations are like a drop in a bucket; they are regarded as dust on the scales; he weighs the islands as though they were fine dust.

03-13-03      one way ticket to palookaville

Well, my journal is starting to look pretty weak, so here's a tall one to make it look like I write regularly.

I look beyond the empty cross
forgetting what my life has cost
and wipe away the crimson stains
and dull the nails that still remain
More and more I need you now,
I owe you more each passing hour
the battle between grace and pride
I gave up not so long ago
So steal my heart and take the pain
and wash the feet and cleanse my pride
take the selfish, take the weak,
and all the things I cannot hide
take the beauty, take my tears
the sin-soaked heart and make it yours
take my world all apart
take it now, take it now
and serve the ones that I despise
speak the words I can't deny
watch the world I used to love
fall to dust and thrown away
I look beyond the empty cross
forgetting what my life has cost
so wipe away the crimson stains
and dull the nails that still remain
so steal my heart and take the pain
take the selfish, take the weak
and all the things I cannot hide
take the beauty, take my tears
take my world apart, take my world apart
I pray, I pray, I pray
take my world apart

--Jars of Clay, "Worlds Apart"

03-10-03      freeindeed

Read Romans 8

Jn 8:36 So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed.

03-04-03      where is the scholar?

Of what use is a philosophy that does not entirely reflect, direct, and permeate one's life?

People think way too much.

03-03-03b      by faith

This is something I started thinking about at Bible study last night. We were talking about Peter's sermons in Acts 2-3. Then Peter stood up with the Eleven, raised his voice and addressed the crowd: "Fellow Jews and all of you who live in Jerusalem, let me explain this to you; listen carefully to what I say." (Ac 2:14) What was Peter thinking at the moment he finished saying that and everyone turned to listen?

Sometimes when I hear people talk about taking a "leap" of faith, I only think about the reckless thrill of the jump. However, there is a moment, between leaping in faith and finding oneself in God's plan, that can be very dark and silent indeed. I'm sure Abraham felt it as he raised his knife over Isaac (Gen 22). I'm sure Elijah felt it as the servants poured the final jars of water over the dripping altar on Carmel (I Kings 18). I'm sure Gideon felt it as he sent thirty thousand soldiers home (Judges 7). I'm sure Noah felt it a few decades into the construction of a landlocked ark (Gen 6-8). I marvel.


Heb 11:32 And what more shall I say? I do not have time to tell about Gideon, Barak, Samson, Jephthah, David, Samuel and the prophets, Heb 11:33 who through faith conquered kingdoms, administered justice, and gained what was promised; who shut the mouths of lions, Heb 11:34 quenched the fury of the flames, and escaped the edge of the sword; whose weakness was turned to strength; and who became powerful in battle and routed foreign armies. Heb 11:35 Women received back their dead, raised to life again. Others were tortured and refused to be released, so that they might gain a better resurrection. Heb 11:36 Some faced jeers and flogging, while still others were chained and put in prison. Heb 11:37 They were stoned; they were sawed in two; they were put to death by the sword. They went about in sheepskins and goatskins, destitute, persecuted and mistreated-- Heb 11:38 the world was not worthy of them. They wandered in deserts and mountains, and in caves and holes in the ground. Heb 11:39 These were all commended for their faith, yet none of them received what had been promised. Heb 11:40 God had planned something better for us so that only together with us would they be made perfect.

03-03-03      title escapes me

Read The Song of the King, by Max Lucado.

Ps 119:11 I have hidden your word in my heart that I might not sin against you.

Dt 6:6 These commandments that I give you today are to be upon your hearts. Dt 6:7 Impress them on your children. Talk about them when you sit at home and when you walk along the road, when you lie down and when you get up. Dt 6:8 Tie them as symbols on your hands and bind them on your foreheads. Dt 6:9 Write them on the doorframes of your houses and on your gates.



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